Imperfection

I am making imperfection okay, I am promoting Imperfection. I am trying to find Joy in the imperfection. Laughing it off, letting it go. 

Imperfection defined as “a fault, blemish, or undesirable feature”, “a detail that makes something (or someone) less than perfect.”

In the mornings I am always in a rush. I rush to put socks on my son and they are usually odd socks. Sometimes we get lucky and there is a pair, a lotto moment (well perhaps not as exciting as of you won the lotto, yet there is a ‘yes’ and a Joy in that room, a Joy when you got that right). Yet I am thinking of the Joy that comes from it being okay not to be perfect, not to get it right. I didn’t think my little boy noticed his odd socks, yet thought it was funny the other day and we laughed about it. 

Always in the morning I’m rushing to get my daughter’s hair done and I used to try to get it perfect. Although my girl often is a great reminder that “it doesn’t have to be perfect” and I love hearing these words. Now if there are bumps or lumps in the ponytail I feel happy with myself. Happy in accepting the Imperfection, Joyful I can let go of the perfection.

My daughter initially in Year 1 would always get 10/10 for spelling yet I was so happy when she started getting some wrong. I say well done when as long as my daughter has put time and effort into learning them. I want to embrace the Imperfection, allowing not getting it right to bring a laugh and Joy.

The other night I sent out 23 invitations for my daughter’s Birthday.  And then last night realised there was no address on the invitation. Mistake.  Imperfection. We laughed about it. 

Sometimes in trying so hard to get it right as a Mum it brings up so much tension and so much guilt about what I’m not doing right. There is so much Imperfection. So much time and effort could go into trying to get it right all the time at work or trying to have the perfect home yet I know I cannot be perfect. I don’t want my children to have to be perfect either. Most importantly to me is that I put my time and effort into loving and spending time with my children. And I want to continue to be  open and transparent and more then okay in the moments and experiences of imperfection. 

I had set a goal of 2 posts per week and was on track, yet I have become behind with this goal now.  And I am okay with that - I am allowing myself to be okay and to not have to be perfect - while still aiming and ensuring for the 100 post goal. 

It is the night before my Birthday and today and tomorrow I will be thinking about my goals for the next 12 months as I head towards the big 50 - yet I do want to make sure I allow Imperfection, that there is room for Imperfection and that I find the humour and Joy in Imperfection.  I want to model to my children that we strive to do our best, by putting in our best effort, and in that attempt, it is okay for us to make mistakes.  I want my home to be filled with love and Joy. I want to be confident in myself with my Imperfection and my children to always feel loved exactly as they are too.